1. I want an internet connection (the faster the better).
2. A decent sized city.
3. A nice house/apartment.
4. A decent gay scene.
5. A low cost of living
Those are my MAIN requirements. I know that it sounds like I want all of the things that I have here but that really isn't the case. Here are some things that I'm willing to do without.
1. A car (at least for a while).
2. A cell phone (again, at least for a while).
3. Movie Theatre's.
5. Video Games.
6. Being able to effectively communicate (at least easily).
7. Allmost ALL of my personal possessions.
8. Being close to my family.
9. Being close to my friends.
My life will change drastically.
I haven't told my family of my plans yet because I figure there's no need to make my mom fret over something any longer than absolutely necessary. I have told my friends though and they support my decision. I'm hoping that they'll all come and visit often, I mean, a tropical vacation for the price of an airline ticket has to be appealing right?
I haven't been asked this yet but I'm sure it's at least in a few peoples heads and that's, "what are you running from"? Honestly, I don't think that I'm running from anything, at least not consciously anyway. I'm looking at this more of a soul searching thing. I grew up in a small town and did all of the things guys are "supposed" to do. I thought and acted like the pack. As soon as I graduated high school I joined the military, and again, thought and acted like the pack. I ended up coming out (at least to myself) when I was 21 and although that was very liberating, I still had to live everyday acting like the pack. I've never gotten to truly know who "I" am. What will I do when I'm all alone with nobody watching. How will I adjust to these totally new situations and people? Who will I become, the person that I really am? I want, I need to do this. I want to LIVE the rest of my life and not just meander through it. It's exciting. It's scary.
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